Running Out of Time
For You Too
Do You Know The Time
Do We Really Know What Time It Is
…for us physicists believe the separation between past, present, and future is only an illusion, although a convincing one… — Albert Einstein
Time is like the wind you cannot see, we only see what it does.
What is it that makes time so important? Why do we speak about it like no other. There are times what we say about time does not make sense. It is time, your time, my time, what time is it, now is the time. You will not know when it is time do a thing until it is done. How many times have we said it is time and it was not? If it has become reality then it was the time. One thing for sure, we live for time. Without it, there would be no space for things to go. Time is space. And all things that exist do so in space. There has to be room to exist. Space was here when we arrived. We are the occupiers. We do not touch space, we only move around in it. We live when it is given.
Time, as we know it, is a concept of “man.” And there are many who cut their time short. You would certainly think that is what I have tried to do. I was known for being where the action is. Where it was not, on my own I would get it done, the good and not so good. Was it being at the right place at the right time? Or was it just being there when it happened because that is where my life put me. What about making it happen at the right time. Either way, I was there. From childhood, my life has been on a trajectory. This is so even when at the wrong place at the wrong time. It seems I have just been along for the ride, guiding the vessel when I could.
Time Is What Space Is
No matter what time it is time does not change. What happens in the space of time does. Time is not changing, we are. This is what I believe. For you and me, it is personal. It starts for each of us when we are created by our parents and is not shared. You cannot lend nor can you borrow time. And your time is the only time you will have. More time will not be given when we have no more. Time, though, is just not as important as what we do with it. When we think of the time that we have, the first thing we should think of is what we are going to do with it. What is just as important is how we feel while we are doing it. To get the most from the time we have been given, we must understand what it is and how to use it wisely. The longer it takes to know what to do the less time we have to do it. Because for sure, we will not get it back. Our life moves on even when our mind does not. You can “live” in the past. You can never be there.
There are two kinds of time in my way of thinking. It is the time that was given to each of us—our own time—and universal time/space, which is the greatest of all; it was created. It does not change. What I am saying maybe more clear if it is thought of in terms of the world, as we now know it to be. There are seven world time zones. The United States uses nine standard zones. Therefore, the question is, what time is the right time? With every area of the world having its own time zones, how can you know what time it is. Neither of them is correct when next to the other. Time that can change is invented by man. It is never the same and is not correct. The time that is, which is the time of nature, will always be. If we had the power over the nature of time, what would we do with it, where would we put it? Would we add a little here, take a little there? For sure, it would be the final step to the end.
We should not make our decisions based on time. Time will not accomplish a thing on its own. Decide what you want to do, then make time to do it. This should be the order of how we decide. No matter how much time we have, if we do not know what we are going to do with it, we will not know how much we need. What matters is how you are going to fill the space. If you bake a cake for the required time but use the wrong ingredients, you will not get the cake that you want. What you would have, then, is a cake you cannot eat and time you no longer have. This time was your time. Let us take a look at nature’s time. In a room there are things, they come and go, some are added some are removed. It makes no difference what time these things are moved or changed, the space does not. Time is space. And there is a time for all things.
What clock do you watch to know what time it is?
The segmentation of time was born by us. The clock on the wall has less to do with the outcome than what we do. The concept of our view of time was imposed on us by us. All things live by the time and will of nature. Though we are the ones’ who live by the clock. We do need it to keep things in order. Just to know why we are where we are at all times. It is a means to know the ebb and flow of life. On a whole, it is a way to monitor and control how and when things are done. It is one of the things a society must do.
A system of time for each of us starts when life starts. There is a time to be born, a time to live and a time to move on. Once we are, there is a time for all things. We do not know the future. We do live for the promise. We do not control time. We do have control of how we live our life. Time does not change things happen. It will be the same no matter the clock on the wall. Time is whole, as it is with space. We will not divide it. There is but one time and it is the same all the time. It is life, it is nature, and it is one.
We may ask much of time, but time does not give. The question asked most, is for more. Time will not answer. It gives not to what we have to say. It stands still, though we do not. We cannot stop it, slow it down or speed it up. Nor can we waste it. The thing that we can do with time is live it. When there is no more time, there is no more to live. We do not start it over. Time goes on our time does not. We should live our time. We cannot get it back once it is gone. Time for all things was here before us and shall be when we are gone. It will be for all time. It is the only thing out of all things that we can depend on. If all things are removed, what is left is the space of time. There is never a void in time. It has been full from the start. In the beginning, there was space for all things.
We are the master of the time we have. Each of us has been blessed with a lifetime. All lives are one. No two are the same. Not one breathes the same breath. When we can, we decide what to do with our lives. This tells the type of life we will have and the path we will follow. As straight as this may be, there are many who do not understand this simple truth. They still try—but can never succeed—to live their lives for and through others. The only thing that you do when you do this is live your time away. Live it, do not live it away. Our time is the only time we have. Do not say I cannot do it for me, I will let someone else to it. No one can do for you what only you can do for yourself.
We never know how much time we have to use the time we have. Time should always be put to its best use. When you do not know what to do next, do what you know now. Your next step should never be rushed or forced. We can never breathe the next breath. It is not for us to know it all. It is for us to know what we need to know. The time of man is not precise. When a thing will be can never be known. Just as it can never be known when it will not. All that we can do is plan. The future is not ours to know. It can be over just when we think we do. Not a thing that was created not to be changed can be changed. The existence of life is one of them. If this is not so, who would turn off the lights after we know how and there is no more to see. It is not within our reach. We humans did not create life. We were created by it to create, a life. The nature of life will not be changed by us. It is not for us to do. We are still learning how to think.
We will be learning about how we think and the workings of the brain as long as there is a power of thought. There can be no end. Just as it is with life, there will always be much left to learn. It would be a lofty goal to want to know why there is life. To think we can know this is reveals a great deal, about how we think. And it is a road with no end, as well. We are yet to discover why one would take a life. Just to indicate how far we are from these great feats, researchers who study the brain are still trying to figure out why we sleep. Sleep, a thing that seems so basic to know. We have dreams and no one knows why. Time is what we need and we know we have that. What we do not and will not know, is how much.
How Much Time Do You Have
Time is What You Have
for us physicists believe the separation between past, present, and future is only an illusion, although a convincing one…
— Albert Einstein
Time is like the wind you cannot see, we only see what it does. Do we really know what time it is?
—James R. Smith-Yarbrough
What is it that makes time so important? Why do we speak about it like no other. There are times what we say about time does not make sense. It is time, your time, my time, what time is it, now is the time. You will not know when it is time do a thing until it is done. How many times have you said it is time and it was not? If it has become reality then it was the time. One thing for sure, we live for time. Without it, there would be no space for things to go. Time is space. And all things that exist do so in space. There has to be room to exist. Space was here when we arrived. We are the occupiers. We do not touch space, we only move around in it. We live when it is given.
Time, as we know it, is a concept of “man.” And there are many who cut their time short. You would certainly think so when you look at some of the things that people do.
Time Is What Space Is
No matter what time it is time does not change. What happens in the space of time does. Time is not changing, we are. This is what I believe. For you and me, it is personal. It starts for each of us when we are created by our parents and is not shared. You cannot lend nor can you borrow time. And your time is the only time you will have. More time will not be given when you have no more. Time, though, is just not as important as what you do with it. When you think of the time that you have, the first thing you should think of is what you are going to do with it. What is just as important, is how you feel while you are doing it. To get the most from the time you have been given, you must understand what it is and how to use it wisely. The longer it takes to know what to do the less time you have to do it. Because for sure, we will not get it back. Our life moves on even when our mind does not. You can “live” in the past. You can never be there.
There are two kinds of time in my way of thinking. It is the time that was given to each of us—our own time—and universal time/space, which is the greatest of all; it was created. It does not change. What I am saying maybe more clear if it is thought of in terms of the world, at least, as we now know it to be. There are seven world time zones. The United States uses nine standard zones. Therefore, the question is, what time is the right time? With every area of the world having its own time zones, how can you know what time it is. Neither of them is correct when next to the other. Time that can change is invented by man. It is never the same and is not correct. The time that is, which is the time of nature, will always be. If we had the power over the nature of time, what would we do with it, where would we put it? Would we add a little here, take a little there? For sure, it would be the last step to the end. Wars would be fought over it, it would be stolen, and some would lie, cheat and steal to get more of it. Those with no power would get none.
You should not make your decisions based on time. Time will not do a thing on its own. Decide what you want to do, then make time to do it. This should be the order of how you decide. No matter how much time you have, if you do not know what you are going to do with it, you will not know how much you need. What matters is how you are going to fill the space. If you bake a cake for the required time but use the wrong ingredients, you will not get the cake that you want. What you would have, then, is a cake you cannot eat and time you no longer have. This time was your time. Let us take a look at nature’s time. In a room there are things, they come and go, some are added some are removed. It makes no difference what time these things are moved or changed, the space does not. Time is space. And there is a time for all things.
What clock do you watch to know what time it is?
The segment of time was born by us. The clock on the wall has less to do with the outcome than what we do. The concept of our view of time was imposed on us by us. All things live by the time and will of nature. Though we are the ones’ who live by the clock. We do need it to keep things in order. Just to know why we are where we are at all times. It is a means to know the ebb and flow of life. On a whole, it is a way to monitor and control how and when things are done. It is one of the things a society must do.
A system of time for each of us starts to tick when we are conceived. This is when life starts. There is a time to be born, a time to live and a time to move on. Once we are, there is a time for all things. We do not know the future. We do live for the promise. We do not control time. We do have control of how we live our life. Time does not change things happen. It will be the same no matter the clock on the wall. Time is whole, as it is with space. We will not divide it. There is but one time and it is the same all the time. It is life, it is nature, and it is one.
We may ask much of time, but time does not give. The question asked most, is for more. Time will not answer. It gives not to what we have to say. It stands still, though we do not. We cannot stop it, slow it down or speed it up. Nor can we waste it. The thing that we can do with time is live it. When there is no more time, there is no more to live. We do not start it over. Time goes on our time does not. We should live our time. We cannot get it back once it is gone. Time for all things was here before us and shall be when we are gone. It will be for all time. It is the only thing out of all things that we can depend on. If all things are removed, what is left is the space of time. There is never a void in time. It has been full from the start. In the beginning, there was space for all things.
We are the master of the time we have. Each of us has been blessed with a lifetime. All lives are one. No two are the same. Not one breathes the same breath. When we can, we decide what to do with our lives. This tells the type of life we will have and the path we will follow. As straight as this may be, there are many who do not understand this simple truth. They still try—but can never succeed—to live their lives for and through others. The only thing that you do when you do this is live your time away. Live it, do not live it away. Our time is the only time we have. Do not say I cannot do it for me, I will let someone else do it. No one can do for you what only you can do for yourself.
We never know how much time we have to use the time we have. Time should always be put to its best use. When you do not know what to do next, do what you know now. Your next step should never be rushed or forced. We can never breathe the next breath. It is not for us to know it all. It is for us to know what we need to know. The time of man is not precise. When a thing will be can never be known. Just as it can never be known when it will not. All that we can do is plan. The future is not ours to know. It can be over just when we think we do. Not a thing that was created not to be changed can be changed. The existence of life is one of them. If this is not so, who would turn off the lights after we know how and there is no more to see. It is not within our reach. We Humans did not create life. We were created by it to create, a life. The nature of life will not be changed by us. It is not for us to do. We are still learning how to think.
We will be learning about how we think and the workings of the brain as long as there is the power of thought. There can be no end. Just as it is with life, there will always be much left to learn. It would be a lofty goal to want to know why there is life. To think we can know this is reveals a great deal, about how we think. And it is a road with no end, as well. We are yet to discover why one would take a life. Just to indicate how far we are from these great feats, researchers who study the brain are still trying to figure out why we sleep. Sleep, a thing that seems so basic to know. We have dreams and no one knows why. Time is what we need and we know we have that. What we do not and will not know, is how much.
How Much Time Do You Have
Time is What You Have
for us physicists believe the separation between past, present, and future is only an illusion, although a convincing one…
— Albert Einstein
Time is like the wind you cannot see, we only see what it does. Do we really know what time it is?
What is it that makes time so important? Why do we speak about it like no other. There are times what we say about time does not make sense. It is time, your time, my time, what time is it, now is the time. You will not know when it is time do a thing until it is done. How many times have you said it is time and it was not? If it has become reality then it was the time. One thing for sure, we live for time. Without it, there would be no space for things to go. Time is space. And all things that exist do so in space. There has to be room to exist. Space was here when we arrived. We are the occupiers. We do not touch space, we only move around in it. We live when it is given.
Time, as we know it, is a concept of “man.” And there are many who cut their time short. You would certainly think so when you look at some of the things that people do.
Time Is What Space Is
No matter what time it is time does not change. What happens in the space of time does. Time is not changing, we are. This is what I believe. For you and me, it is personal. It starts for each of us when we are created by our parents and is not shared. You cannot lend nor can you borrow time. And your time is the only time you will have. More time will not be given when you have no more. Time, though, is just not as important as what you do with it. When you think of the time that you have, the first thing you should think of is what you are going to do with it. What is just as important, is how you feel while you are doing it. To get the most from the time you have been given, you must understand what it is and how to use it wisely. The longer it takes to know what to do the less time you have to do it. Because for sure, we will not get it back. Our life moves on even when our mind does not. You can “live” in the past. You can never be there.
There are two kinds of time in my way of thinking. It is the time that was given to each of us—our own time—and universal time/space, which is the greatest of all; it was created. It does not change. What I am saying maybe more clear if it is thought of in terms of the world, at least, as we now know it to be. There are seven world time zones. The United States uses nine standard zones. Therefore, the question is, what time is the right time? With every area of the world having its own time zones, how can you know what time it is. Neither of them is correct when next to the other. Time that can change is invented by man. It is never the same and is not correct. The time that is, which is the time of nature, will always be. If we had the power over the nature of time, what would we do with it, where would we put it? Would we add a little here, take a little there? For sure, it would be the last step to the end. Wars would be fought over it, it would be stolen, and some would lie, cheat and steal to get more of it. Those with no power would get none.
You should not make your decisions based on time. Time will not do a thing on its own. Decide what you want to do, then make time to do it. This should be the order of how you decide. No matter how much time you have, if you do not know what you are going to do with it, you will not know how much you need. What matters is how you are going to fill the space. If you bake a cake for the required time but use the wrong ingredients, you will not get the cake that you want. What you would have, then, is a cake you cannot eat and time you no longer have. This time was your time. Let us take a look at nature’s time. In a room there are things, they come and go, some are added some are removed. It makes no difference what time these things are moved or changed, the space does not. Time is space. And there is a time for all things.
What clock do you watch to know what time it is?
The segment of time was born by us. The clock on the wall has less to do with the outcome than what we do. The concept of our view of time was imposed on us by us. All things live by the time and will of nature. Though we are the ones’ who live by the clock. We do need it to keep things in order. Just to know why we are where we are at all times. It is a means to know the ebb and flow of life. On a whole, it is a way to monitor and control how and when things are done. It is one of the things a society must do.
A system of time for each of us starts to tick when we are conceived. This is when life starts. There is a time to be born, a time to live and a time to move on. Once we are, there is a time for all things. We do not know the future. We do live for the promise. We do not control time. We do have control of how we live our life. Time does not change things happen. It will be the same no matter the clock on the wall. Time is whole, as it is with space. We will not divide it. There is but one time and it is the same all the time. It is life, it is nature, and it is one.
We may ask much of time, but time does not give. The question asked most, is for more. Time will not answer. It gives not to what we have to say. It stands still, though we do not. We cannot stop it, slow it down or speed it up. Nor can we waste it. The thing that we can do with time is live it. When there is no more time, there is no more to live. We do not start it over. Time goes on our time does not. We should live our time. We cannot get it back once it is gone. Time for all things was here before us and shall be when we are gone. It will be for all time. It is the only thing out of all things that we can depend on. If all things are removed, what is left is the space of time. There is never a void in time. It has been full from the start. In the beginning, there was space for all things.
We are the master of the time we have. Each of us has been blessed with a lifetime. All lives are one. No two are the same. Not one breathes the same breath. When we can, we decide what to do with our lives. This tells the type of life we will have and the path we will follow. As straight as this may be, there are many who do not understand this simple truth. They still try—but can never succeed—to live their lives for and through others. The only thing that you do when you do this is live your time away. Live it, do not live it away. Our time is the only time we have. Do not say I cannot do it for me, I will let someone else do it. No one can do for you what only you can do for yourself.
We never know how much time we have to use the time we have. Time should always be put to its best use. When you do not know what to do next, do what you know now. Your next step should never be rushed or forced. We can never breathe the next breath. It is not for us to know it all. It is for us to know what we need to know. The time of man is not precise. When a thing will be can never be known. Just as it can never be known when it will not. All that we can do is plan. The future is not ours to know. It can be over just when we think we do. Not a thing that was created not to be changed can be changed. The existence of life is one of them. If this is not so, who would turn off the lights after we know how and there is no more to see. It is not within our reach. We Humans did not create life. We were created by it to create, a life. The nature of life will not be changed by us. It is not for us to do. We are still learning how to think.
We will be learning about how we think and the workings of the brain as long as there is the power of thought. There can be no end. Just as it is with life, there will always be much left to learn. It would be a lofty goal to want to know why there is life. To think we can know this is reveals a great deal, about how we think. And it is a road with no end, as well. We are yet to discover why one would take a life. Just to indicate how far we are from these great feats, researchers who study the brain are still trying to figure out why we sleep. Sleep, a thing that seems so basic to know. We have dreams and no one knows why. Time is what we need and we know we have that. What we do not and will not know, is how much.
Running Out of Time
For You Too
Do You Know The Time
Do We Really Know What Time It Is
…for us physicists believe the separation between past, present, and future is only an illusion, although a convincing one… — Albert Einstein
Time is like the wind you cannot see, we only see what it does.
What is it that makes time so important? Why do we speak about it like no other. There are times what we say about time does not make sense. It is time, your time, my time, what time is it, now is the time. You will not know when it is time do a thing until it is done. How many times have we said it is time and it was not? If it has become reality then it was the time. One thing for sure, we live for time. Without it, there would be no space for things to go. Time is space. And all things that exist do so in space. There has to be room to exist. Space was here when we arrived. We are the occupiers. We do not touch space, we only move around in it. We live when it is given.
Time, as we know it, is a concept of “man.” And there are many who cut their time short. You would certainly think that is what I have tried to do. I was known for being where the action is. Where it was not, on my own I would get it done, the good and not so good. Was it being at the right place at the right time? Or was it just being there when it happened because that is where my life put me. What about making it happen at the right time. Either way, I was there. From childhood, my life has been on a trajectory. This is so even when at the wrong place at the wrong time. It seems I have just been along for the ride, guiding the vessel when I could.
Time Is What Space Is
No matter what time it is time does not change. What happens in the space of time does. Time is not changing, we are. This is what I believe. For you and me, it is personal. It starts for each of us when we are created by our parents and is not shared. You cannot lend nor can you borrow time. And your time is the only time you will have. More time will not be given when we have no more. Time, though, is just not as important as what we do with it. When we think of the time that we have, the first thing we should think of is what we are going to do with it. What is just as important is how we feel while we are doing it. To get the most from the time we have been given, we must understand what it is and how to use it wisely. The longer it takes to know what to do the less time we have to do it. Because for sure, we will not get it back. Our life moves on even when our mind does not. You can “live” in the past. You can never be there.
There are two kinds of time in my way of thinking. It is the time that was given to each of us—our own time—and universal time/space, which is the greatest of all; it was created. It does not change. What I am saying maybe more clear if it is thought of in terms of the world, as we now know it to be. There are seven world time zones. The United States uses nine standard zones. Therefore, the question is, what time is the right time? With every area of the world having its own time zones, how can you know what time it is. Neither of them is correct when next to the other. Time that can change is invented by man. It is never the same and is not correct. The time that is, which is the time of nature, will always be. If we had the power over the nature of time, what would we do with it, where would we put it? Would we add a little here, take a little there? For sure, it would be the final step to the end.
We should not make our decisions based on time. Time will not accomplish a thing on its own. Decide what you want to do, then make time to do it. This should be the order of how we decide. No matter how much time we have, if we do not know what we are going to do with it, we will not know how much we need. What matters is how you are going to fill the space. If you bake a cake for the required time but use the wrong ingredients, you will not get the cake that you want. What you would have, then, is a cake you cannot eat and time you no longer have. This time was your time. Let us take a look at nature’s time. In a room there are things, they come and go, some are added some are removed. It makes no difference what time these things are moved or changed, the space does not. Time is space. And there is a time for all things.
What clock do you watch to know what time it is?
The segmentation of time was born by us. The clock on the wall has less to do with the outcome than what we do. The concept of our view of time was imposed on us by us. All things live by the time and will of nature. Though we are the ones’ who live by the clock. We do need it to keep things in order. Just to know why we are where we are at all times. It is a means to know the ebb and flow of life. On a whole, it is a way to monitor and control how and when things are done. It is one of the things a society must do.
A system of time for each of us starts when life starts. There is a time to be born, a time to live and a time to move on. Once we are, there is a time for all things. We do not know the future. We do live for the promise. We do not control time. We do have control of how we live our life. Time does not change things happen. It will be the same no matter the clock on the wall. Time is whole, as it is with space. We will not divide it. There is but one time and it is the same all the time. It is life, it is nature, and it is one.
We may ask much of time, but time does not give. The question asked most, is for more. Time will not answer. It gives not to what we have to say. It stands still, though we do not. We cannot stop it, slow it down or speed it up. Nor can we waste it. The thing that we can do with time is live it. When there is no more time, there is no more to live. We do not start it over. Time goes on our time does not. We should live our time. We cannot get it back once it is gone. Time for all things was here before us and shall be when we are gone. It will be for all time. It is the only thing out of all things that we can depend on. If all things are removed, what is left is the space of time. There is never a void in time. It has been full from the start. In the beginning, there was space for all things.
We are the master of the time we have. Each of us has been blessed with a lifetime. All lives are one. No two are the same. Not one breathes the same breath. When we can, we decide what to do with our lives. This tells the type of life we will have and the path we will follow. As straight as this may be, there are many who do not understand this simple truth. They still try—but can never succeed—to live their lives for and through others. The only thing that you do when you do this is live your time away. Live it, do not live it away. Our time is the only time we have. Do not say I cannot do it for me, I will let someone else to it. No one can do for you what only you can do for yourself.
We never know how much time we have to use the time we have. Time should always be put to its best use. When you do not know what to do next, do what you know now. Your next step should never be rushed or forced. We can never breathe the next breath. It is not for us to know it all. It is for us to know what we need to know. The time of man is not precise. When a thing will be can never be known. Just as it can never be known when it will not. All that we can do is plan. The future is not ours to know. It can be over just when we think we do. Not a thing that was created not to be changed can be changed. The existence of life is one of them. If this is not so, who would turn off the lights after we know how and there is no more to see. It is not within our reach. We humans did not create life. We were created by it to create, a life. The nature of life will not be changed by us. It is not for us to do. We are still learning how to think.
We will be learning about how we think and the workings of the brain as long as there is a power of thought. There can be no end. Just as it is with life, there will always be much left to learn. It would be a lofty goal to want to know why there is life. To think we can know this is reveals a great deal, about how we think. And it is a road with no end, as well. We are yet to discover why one would take a life. Just to indicate how far we are from these great feats, researchers who study the brain are still trying to figure out why we sleep. Sleep, a thing that seems so basic to know. We have dreams and no one knows why. Time is what we need and we know we have that. What we do not and will not know, is how much.
Your Mind is Talking
For You Too
“It is what got me here, and would not let me leave until it carried me away.”
If you want to listen to what I have to say, then say what you have to say. Nothing but the truth is the only way we can understand who we are and how we feel.
My name is __________and I live in___________. I am__________. My______________. I now realize that_________. And it is because____________. When I was growing up my_______. I got_________. Why________. There are times when________. I have tried_________. No one________. I need________. If_________. Then________. They__________. It_________. I am open to__________. I just feel________. I think_________.
To understand what comes next, you have to become a part of what you hear when you read. But you do have to listen to what you hear. They are not the same. You have to try to listen. Hearing you do not. You have to let it sink in until it becomes a vision in your mind’s eye. You do have to feel it to see it. And you have to see it with not only your eyes, but with your mind to believe it.
Much of what I say may not be clear to you on first reading. It will all be clear to you once you understand. It may take more than a first glance; change is not always understood on the first look. And this is change, and not just for change sake. What we think we know is not all there is. This is just another way to look at life. It is not so much the comfort of a story, as it is to look at how we think what we do, and why. There is a reason why our lives are the way they are. No matter the way we live. For me it became a dependent state of mind.
It keeps me from sinking, but it doesn’t allow me to swim.
You can only tread water for so long. You have to swim or you will sink. I had not learned how. You are taught, or learn from what you think about what you see. And what we see may not always be what we think it is.
It all begins with a walk through the mind. At some point, and I am not sure when, I became dependent. I looked around, and it was just there. I now needed help from someone else so that I could help me. What was this? I never knew that I thought this way. One thing I do know, it is a sign of weakness. As I looked back, I realized it was nothing new. My upbringing was a breeding ground for this type of behavior. And what had been set in motion would get in my way.
The dependent mindset had come to life in my mind and would tug on me for many years to come. It held me back and became a way of life. And many of my choices were made with this way of thinking. I would reach for the quick and easy. You will do that when you are willing to settle for less than your best. I paid for it by letting go of what dignity I had left. The jobs that I had growing up could not help me overcome the weakness that was in me. It was all deep down inside, it held on, and would not let go. I have had wonderful jobs, and did not have the mind to hold on to them.
This did not change my dependent way of thinking. Could be I lost the jobs on purpose, I don’t know, just a thought. Then again, yes, I do know. No one would do this on purpose. It was my mind, again, telling me what to do. This is when I should have been the one doing the talking. I did not do the best for myself and it was all caused by my insecure feelings and low self-esteem. Which had always been there, it seems. This in turn caused me to think in ways that made no sense. I was not given the space to learn to love myself. You do not hurt that which you love. And hurt is what I was doing. This is the reason for it all. You have to have it to give it.
My roots were planted in loose soil. It caused me to feel uncertain about who I was. All I could do was search for something to hold on to. Only a drive to survive is what you own. And one day you open your eyes. It is then that you realize you have become dependent on those around you. It got the best of me and drove me to the wall.
When you live your life this way, you have to keep always the edge, and this you cannot do. When you let go of your grip and try to be yourself, your advantage will give way and so will your hold. You have to be yourself first because that is who you are. When we are not being who we are, it will not be us they know. If you do not know this experience, think what it would be like. The hunter is now the game. Do not think your “Self” in to its grip. There are things in life that must be as we expect them to be. We depend on these things. As we do life itself. To depend is a way of life. The way it is meant to be. To be dependent on a person, place or thing is just a way to say, I quit. It shows a lack of Self awareness.
We should never think we cannot do a thing on our own. It is not how we should live. Never think you have no choice. In a relationship, on the job, or any other time or place you have to feel you are free to be you. We have the right to be who we are. Our role in life depends on it. We can be no one else. We only do this when we find it hard for whatever the reason to be ourselves. No one can know who we are. How can they, if you do not know yourself. Though they will try, with your help, to tell you who you are. If we are ever lost, we must find ourselves. There is no other way to look at it. We can search but we will not find a thing more important to us than being aware of the Self. If not, not a thing will work. You are the only one who can say who you are.
Our world has to be made ready for us before we arrive. We are born for others to take care of us. It is meant to be that way—that is—until we can take care of ourselves. We have to be made ready to do so. These are the things that we get from those who are responsible for our care. If we do not, our life can be a difficult road to travel. And no one will be eager to help if he or she thinks you should already know what you do not. Many will see this as the fault of the one who has been hurt by this. That is, unless they have a reason to care. Not at all; though, if they think they have no choice for doing so.
Depend not on a source when you do not know what you give for what you get. This is when you are being helped and you do not know why. For that which you are not sure, not a thing about it can be for sure. There is not much we can be sure of when we are not sure of our own Self.
I could not lift myself up. My mind was holding me down. To be a dependent when you should not, is not a good thing to be. It is what you do when you do not have confidence in yourself. It will not let you grow. I was in a relationship where I was being held back by my own thoughts. Not knowing what would cross the line if I could muster the strength to be me. In my mind, my status was always in doubt.
When you are dependent, you do not know if your feelings are true or you are just trying to survive. I would do what I thought I must do. I was bound by my status. You don’t know if you should draw a breath when you are not sure if you should breathe. My thoughts were disordered. They caused me to think myself in to this. It would be another step like the other steps that got me here. I did not want to leave, but I could not stay. I at last heard me calling. And I listened to what I had to say.It was the only way I could be me. There was no room for me there. Of course, we do have to depend on life for what we need. It is one of the rules of nature. It is how we survive.
To depend and being dependent on are not the same. One we must and the other we should try with all our might not to be.
